I need help.. | ADHD Information

When I was younger I have always been more on the shy side but when I came to high school I finally came more out of my shell. My doctor prescribed me with Adderall xr and it worked amazingly, I had the first straight A report card in my life, and I studied like it was my job in all my classes. However, it made me unbelievably shy, I mean phobia shy, I soon started coming home everyday for lunch because I couldn't bear to be in the presence of people. A while ago I had to do a presentation and I felt as though I was going to pass out, and then I just stood in the front of the class rabbling on about unrelated things. I'm so paranoid, I can't sit in a study hall without hearing whispers and assuming they're about me and trying to go home sick because people don't like me. Now, after 6 months of taking Adderall everyday, it's like I've built a tolerance to it, but I'm still so self-concious and shy. I don't know what to do, I miss my friends and going out, and dating.. I'm sick of spending day after day, weekend after weekend in my room, but on the rare occation I do go out I'm a mute and extremely self-concious the whole time . My mom already thinks I'm crazy, and I feel so much pressure from my dad with my grades that it's kind of a catch 22 at this point(grades ranging from Bs-Cs). Some of my old friends are making fun of how I have "no life".  I don't even have any motivation to study for tomorrow's test when 3 months ago I would have been studying by now.

About a year ago though, I incountered a pretty tramatic event in which I was raped, and after seeking medical attention I was diagnosised with ADD and given Adderall. It's hard to bring this issue up but is it possible this situation has cause my Social Phobia or do ADD medications have this side effect?

I just don't know where to go from here. Do I go on a different ADD med and start taking a Social Phobia med? I'm going to Mexico in 6 weeks and my doctors apt is the day before I leave but I don't wanna start a new med the week I'm in Mexico.



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I can't answer your question. i don't think anyone can. I do  think  it was a smart move telling your DR. what was going on.  Some people might of been too embarrassed to ask for help.  Myself, I don't think  there is any shame in asking for help . It's far worse too know you need it and do nothing imo.  If your folks have insurance and you aren't seeing a Pschiatrist  for the ADD/PTSD/Paranoia stuff  maybe you could.  I think those with expertise in the area  know more about the medications  than family Dr's...just my opinion  and I don't know diddly.    I would bet dollars to donuts that your Mom  wants nothing from you but happiness  in life.

 I went to see a "talk" Therapist   for a bit of time a while back  to help me overcome  bad experiences  i was dragging around  from childhood.  It really, really, helped  me.  It must  be very hard dealing with all the feelings  about the hurt done to  you and the bad reaction you are getting from the medication at the same time.  I think you are pretty brave  just asking  for help. It says  a lot  about who you  are( good things).    I hope  you find peace of mind  and happiness sooner rather than later  but, I am sure  with the willingness to ask for help you will find  it.