Alone in my head for 4 years | ADHD Information
Lol I'm going to college for game design and I love making art.I want to get better though so I can express myself more.
Plus I really need a model to do proper poses for what I'm trying to accomplish in photoshop.
And just going up to some exremely expressive emo hottie and asking her to model for my photoshop stuff wouldn't fly all that well.
Once I find someone who'll model I'll start working again.
Either that or when I buy a digital camera.
I'm just sick of not having my art be totally mine.
Not my best or worst. I think it'd be cool to see how other ADHD folks express themselves.Do you guys get my meaning in the title?
I don't talk NEARLY as much as I like because others cant grasp my thoughts.
Or they give me simple answers when what I want back is to see that I'm not alone and that I'm not crazy for thinking this fast about everything all the time.
I want someone to understand me.
Thats it.
I want someone I can interupt constantly and be interupted right back.
Do you guys think people arn't as deep or as capable of thoughts as us?
The only time I can get a decent conversation with someone is when they're either tripping thier brains out or high.
Are we just tripping every single day?
Because seriously.
I could talk forever.
Not stoping.
About ANYTHING.
But no one says ANYTHING that could rival my intense thoughts.
I'm going to have to marry somone with hardcore ADHD to be content, I know it.
So, I've been trapped in my head for nearly four years.
And now I'm sick of it.
I'm talking even if no one listens.
nope, I don't agree but that's ok that's me and you are you.
I hate being interrupted....it means I have to wait to talk lol
Maybe the only exception is if I am in an intense debate about something and the conversation is a series of points and rebuttals in short clips. I don't like talking to people who are plodding or windy and give long convolouted answers about the menaning of life when I asked how to make Shrimp Scampi. Most of the time I don't think it takes all that long to make a point. Some people seem to really have a knack for stretching it out and I get very fruestrated listening too them and then the sentence finishing, the distraction and the interrupting are real hard to check because of my frustration level.
I stopped tripping when I was 19 it was like running an electrolux through an Organ( my brain) that was already not tuned right. I am not so special and unique. I am just a man. Brighter than a lot of people but not a genius. I don't have great and extraordinary thoughts. I do think a little different than other people that's it. My thinking is just wired a bit different and the medication and diet changes and exclusion of illicit drugs/alcohol from my system help correct it.
God, i wouldnt of wanted to marry someone like me pre medication...I was married, she was no winner but, truth be told neither was I before I got help. Not willfully so on my part jsut the stuff ADDers do that drive others nuts that we aren't even aware of.
I can relate to your title. I am similar in that I can be pretty intense. I have a suggestion that may help. I don't know your age but I am thinking I am older than you. I found an escape in some not so good outlets when I was younger (in my teens and 20's) but now have found that I need a creative outlet in order to release all the activity in my mind- otherwise I get myself in trouble. I hope that makes sense. I am very visual so I get alot of satisfaction out of art - painting, photography, drawing, etc. Right now I am really into paper collages. They are kind of abstract and colorful and really made just for my enjoyment. If someone else likes them fine but the point in me doing it is that it gives me something to get into in a good way.
I bet you have an abundance of creative ability too even if you are not interested in visual arts. I would experiment with different creative outlets- music, drama, dance, writing. I like activity so I get creative with most things I do- gardening, woodworking - whatever might interest you. I met a guy who makes these absolutely beautiful wood carvings. Its very physical and intense but a release. You get to use a part of your brain that functions well w/ ADD.
What are some of your interests? I know you probably have many :)
I just wanted to add that intensity can also be described as passionate. I enjoy people who are passionate about things because I like intensity and passion too. The key is directing the passion in a good way.
My husband is not ADD but I think we get along well because he is a driven type of person who enjoys my intensity. He is definitely more left brained than right brained where I am just the opposite. We compliment each other well that way. I do need him around though so I don't end up off in the ozone- he keeps me grounded.
I understand what you mean to a degree. There are certain people I connect with emmediately and we talk for hours and hours! It is really funny. There are other people who seem so foreign to me. I don't get along with them immediately and they don't seem to understand me either. I am taking some herbal supplements right now that I really love. They work better for me than the meds I was on. This is just my reaction, but I'd like everyone to know.
Getting back to your subject, I'm getting distracted 
, after being on medication and herbal supplements, I can tell the difference in my life from before and after. Looking back I can see that I was a very intrinsic person. Now, I feel extrinsic. I hope that is how you spell it. But I fee like the world is opening up for me and I am not just trapped in my own mind anymore, wandering about, thinking so much. I can actually carry out my thoughts and wishes and dreams.