I usually write in stanzas, too.
As far as the "my body needs sleep" feeling - so does mine! I was diagnosed in August and have been on Adderall ever since - I started off taking 10mg 3x day and now I take 30mg 3x day some times 40mg. It sucks lying in bed at night or should I say at 2AM wanting nothing more but to fall asleep and cant b/c you cant shut the channel flipping TV off in your head!
I did try Ritalin for about 2 wks and it didnt work for me, I just wanted to eat and sleep!
For the person who wrote about taking more adderall - as I said before I now take 30mg - my psychiatrist actually wrote my script for 40mg 3x day but with 40 I am a little over the top it almost has a reverse reaction. Also like you some days I feel like it isnt working anymore at all. I have found that the generic are weaker then the regular but the regular adderall gives me realy psycho mood swings. My doctor said that 30 or 40 was not too high b/c they really havent found an "amount" that is suitable for people are age (18-25) - all of the mg criteria is based on children.
If I were you do what I did and do a little experiment...dont go up by much but try 30...thats how I learned all along that I needed more mgs.
also may I ask how long you all are finding that adderall works...like mine says it will last 4 hours but sometimes I can feel off of it in 2...just wondering
It makes me feel less alone with ADHD other then underachievers and shut-ins from high school.
I hope I'll be able to help you guys too.
heh nice word's m8 but hey let's try and make it so we have kid's they can never have the problem's we did
I thought I was the only one who wrote in stanzas. I mean I dont always do it but when I sat down to write part of my life story the only way I could do it was in stanzas.
You would laugh if you saw my journals... Its pure bullet points with thoughts allthe way down the page. I call it collecting thoughts. Helps me to map out overwhelming periods in my life & maximize the effectivness in the rest.
I just started taking aderall and for the first 4 days I was pumped. I had finally found something that would calm me down & allow me to focus.
I have expierienced this before when i first got onto ritalin.
It all keeps wearing off though... like a week or 2 later it just doesnt seem to be doing anything.
I am a bit worried about taking more than 20 mgs of AD XR...
I dont know what to do though. I am totally unfocused @ my desk and I feel sooo dang guilty... I feel like I am stealing from the company i work for or something.
from reading a few of these posts Id just like to hear if people take more than 20 in here and what it does to them...
There's that hyperfocus again.I'm 18 and I just graduated early from my second senior year.
They figured out that HEY I'm not really lazy like 4 months into this embarrassing fiasco.
I was REALLY smart even before I failed.
I would get mid 90s on nearly every test I took but because I didn't do homework I failed nearly every class I took but I learned and proved my intelligence daily, and they still called me lazy.
It's was nearly too late by the time they figured it out.
It took them nearly 17 years to figure out that my ADHD wasn’t just an excuse.
I served detention nearly everyday for standing up for what I believed in.
I never got in a fight, I was the most respectful person.
But my mouth.
OH my mouth.
I couldn't keep it shut.
I never cursed at a teacher or raised my voice, but I would very respectfully and intelligently state my opinion and I would be called a smartass.
They never knew me, well.... They knew very little of what I was.
I just seemed like some futureless stoner who fought the power whenever he could.
And yet, look at me.
I beat them.
They were FINALLY forced to accommodate my 504 plan.
I'm going to design video games.
I have everything I finally need to chase a dream I buried a long time ago.
They tried to take my pride away.
The teachers would single me out and accuse me of things I would never dream of doing.
I'd go home and meditate for clarity and understanding of these people who hated me so much because I talked.
Because I had too much pride.
I started taking Adderall my first senior year but I was only given a dosage that wouldn't affect a ten year old.
Then they gave me 30mg and for once in my life I would swallow my pride.
And I hated it.
But I loved how much I could learn, it was worth every thing they did to me.
They had me at 30 for a while and it wouldn't really last, they bumped me up to 60 and it pretty much saved my life.
Adderall is my bane and saving grace at the same time.
My face doesn't really show much emotion during the day and my body needs sleep.
Sleeping doesn't do as much though, I basically run off of amphetamines.
It's a half life. I still love live and I'm very happy, but I don't really sleep and when I do its only for 4-7 hours.
I pretty much have all of the side effects.
I don't notice them day to day and I've built habits to keep my body as healthy as I can. It's worth it though. I mean it sounds sad but it is.
Like I said though personality wise I'm fine, I have good friends and live a totally fulfilling life. HOWEVER I really live for the day when I don't need Adderall anymore and I can stop.
They're telling me that I'll probably have to take it the rest of my life though.
I know its a way off but I want to stop when I retire.
And live a life without a second... thing in my head.
Till then I guess I'm stuck with it.
My gift and my curse.
It's nice to find a community like this though.
It makes me feel less alone with ADHD other then underachievers and shut-ins from high school.
I hope I'll be able to help you guys too.
I guess I'm just really psyched to finally see people living and coping with ADHD.
It makes me worry a little less about my future.
Oh and for some reason I always type in these weird stanzas
Sorry ahead of time.
lol.
Oh and I say they alot I meant school administration.