Newbie needs a shoulder - | ADHD Information

  Right now I feel like the lonliest person on the planet!  You know it's not that I want pity or attention, it is that I have such a deep emotional spirit and things really hit me hard sometimes.  I just found this forum and I am so happy that there are adult adhd'ers candidly talking about this condition.

Now to be technical for a moment I have not been diagnosed as of yet, but I go next month to see a psychiatrist that I have no doubt that will.  I am also bi-polar and suffer from chronic depression.  I have all the adhd symptoms down to the most obscure like being a loner, rarely being understood, and having one job after another.  I don't know if the tests on the internet can be considered accurate, but the five I took all say the same thing, highly probable.  Plus my psychologist admits that I most likely have it. 

And I know now that I have suffered from this disorder all of my life since I was a small child.  Not to mention that my daughter has been diagnosed, as well.  She is 22 and in college, yet she's very gifted.  I on the other hand am not.  I have the worst time with anything mathematical.  Right now I am back in college myself struggling with obtaining a two year degree in programming/web development,   which is one of the reasons I want to be accurately diagnosed. 

I hope it's okay to be here without a concrete diagnosis yet.  Because I desperately need to talk to people and make friends.  I have kept so much bottled up inside me that I feel like a stick of dynamite that hasn't been lit yet.  No one understands me or what I go through inside and sometimes it feels like torture.  No one can even relate to what I feel, how I feel, or why I feel the way that I do.  I hope that makes sense. 

I feel better just putting my thoughts to cyberspace hoping that someone will see them.  Thank you for listening.

Peace to all,

ladyhope

Welcome, Ladyhope! You've certainly come to the right place. Of course you don't need a dx to join in on the forums. A lot of us knew long before we got dx'd. How could we not, having lived with it since childhood. In fact, this forum helped me finally get my dr to dx me, and yesterday I finally started meds for ADHD. I'm already on meds for depression and mood disorder. Look out world, here comes a new Gypsy!

So get reading...there are a lot of great posts going back as far as you want. You'll find a lot of great people here and great information.

You won't be lonely here, Lady.

Thank you, Gypsy for the warm welcome.  I've only read a few posts, but I already feel that I belong here.  If I'm not prying could I ask what the doctor put you on for adhd?  And Good Luck, hope the meds work really well for ya.

Peace,

ladyhope

hi ladyhope

i think if you read through this forum and find a lot in common
with what all of us are saying, then you most likely have this
problem. i know there are many out there who think adhd is
just an excuse made up by lazy people but i think it is highly
unlikely that so many people can have such similar
experiences despite the fact that we come from all sorts of
ethnic, social, and educational backgrounds. and reading the
posts in this forum for me is as if i have known these members
my entire life though i have only been on this board a few days.
if you are looking for empathy, not just sympathy, you will find it
here. chin up. having a support system is one of the best
things for depression - i know, as i am currently being treated
for it too.

and letting out your frustrations be it verbally or on the net is
also really good therapy. so keep it up and don';t apologize for
it!

Thank you too, Velvet for the welcome.  It really is something to read through these posts and realize that you're not totally alone in the world.  If I ever met anyone with adhd I didn't know it.  Do you think we would recognize another one like ourselves?  Or would we both think that each other is strange?  LOL

I think my apologizing all the time is a shield to protect myself just in case I've insulted anyone or broken some rule I didn't know about.  I do it alot, almost impulsively.  Most of the time instead of helping it seems to agitate people, I know I should stop.  Maybe now I will.

Thanks and peace,

ladyhope

 

sound's like your just a really nice person, be careful because alot of people *IMHO* MOST people take that as a sign you will be easy to walk on.

 

I used to be really nice to people but over the year's it has worn off, I am normally pretty cruel now unless I know them.. even then Im still guarded.

 

It's nice to realise now that's why I was so on guard was because I could tell I had a weak spot but didn't understand what it was * ADD*

 

This may be your problem too, you can sense that it has caused you to slip up in some wierd way and your trying to make up for it?

 

Ok my brain is goin to fast, cya.