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when i study, i need the stereo, tv and dvd player goingotherwise i can't concentrate
if i am in a situation that is boring i always fiddle with my hands
or my hair to calm down (my hair mostly these days - i must
look so vain!)
Oh my, Hobo, I have all the same symptoms that you mentioned and have had for years.
Does the constant train of thoughts ever slow down? all the time, it's like I'm in overdrive....
Are you able to get things done without constant mental "hand-wringing" and turmoil? no, not usually. I even quite a job because I was putting in too much overtime because I could not keep up the pace during the day. There were too many distractions.
Does anyone else have problems with getting lost in your own mind? all the time. Occasionally, when I am able to really focus I zone out and am totally lost in my own thoughts. Wish I could learn to train myself to do this when I really need to.
I go through imaginary conversations or relive old conversations frequently. Yep, I do this too. The memories sometimes flood my subconscience and I relive every detail, sometimes sad, occasionally very pleasant, and then I remember occasions where I have really embarrased myself or someone else and I start beating myself up for being such a dork!
I will also be telling a story and stop midsentence. I do this too and I'll have to ask the person, "now what was I saying?"
Do you get songs or words repeating over and over and over and over? Wow, now this can be a pain because I will stop whatever I'm doing and try to find the name of the song in my head. It drives me crazy.
Is watching TV calming for you too? Sometimes too calming. I can watch television all day long, literally. I kid you not! People think I am really weird but it is calming. My ex never could understand it, but it gave me a real sense of peace. I try not to turn it on on the days I have to get things done or study.
During the day when you are at work, do you ever have the very strong urge to go home? Oh yeah, I did when I was working. It would usually happen if something went wrong at work and I felt to blame for it. Any time I feel exposed I always want to run home and hide. 
When you are doing a project, do you feel like you are pushing through a mental barrier to get it done? all the time, projects always been hard for me because I procrastinate too long then I put myself through the most arduous pressure to complete the task.
Do you find it difficult to muster the energy to do things sometimes? everyday!
Do you find yourself snapping at your loved ones even though you don't mean too? uh-huh, and it's usually because I feel I'm being ignored.
Do you have negative thoughts about you abilities even though those around you think highly of you but you feel if they knew the truth as you see it they would think you are worthless? oh boy, you've nailed it here. It's difficult for me to accept compliments of any kind, because I never feel that I am worthy of them. I am always beating myself up mentally, usually 24/7. Trying to hold on to my self-esteem is the hardest problematic part of my personality and the most damaging.
Peace,
ladyhope
Does anyone else have problems with getting lost in your own mind? I go through imaginary conversations or relive old conversations frequently. I will also be telling a story and stop midsentence. I get lost in my thoughts alot when I'm home esp when I'm playing with my little one. Do you get songs or words repeating over and over and over and over?
Is watching TV calming for you too?
During the day when you are at work, do you ever have the very strong urge to go home? When you are doing a project, do you feel like you are pushing through a mental barrier to get it done? It's almost painful?
Do you have a sleep disorder? I have hypnogogy and see things at night. I am asleep and dreaming but am aware of my surroundings so it like my dream is happening in my room.
Do you find it difficult to muster the energy to do things sometimes? Do you find yourself snapping at your loved ones even though you don't mean too? Do you have negative thoughts about you abilities even though those around you think highly of you but you feel if they knew the truth as you see it they would think you are worthless? Do you beat yourself up mentally?
Tell me what you think! I'd like to hear I'm not alone.......
[QUOTE=hobocat]Hi! newly diagnosed add and I have a few questions from people who have been here too. What is it like to be on meds. I am currently on Zoloft for pure O ocd. Does the constant train of thoughts ever slow down? Are you able to get things done without constant mental "hand-wringing" and turmoil?
I hallucinated badly on Zoloft - so can't help you there. But yes definately if you find the right med - usually through trial and error - you will find some mental peace.
Does anyone else have problems with getting lost in your own mind? I go through imaginary conversations or relive old conversations frequently. This is called internal dialogue - meditation helps this problem I will also be telling a story and stop midsentence. I get lost in my thoughts alot when I'm home esp when I'm playing with my little one. Do you get songs or words repeating over and over and over and over? Not so much now - but through my 20's a hell of a lot.
Is watching TV calming for you too? TV bores me - I find being on the net and forums calming. Sort of calming LOL - except in that divorce thread - not so calming LMAO.
During the day when you are at work, do you ever have the very strong urge to go home? When you are doing a project, do you feel like you are pushing through a mental barrier to get it done? It's almost painful? Yes, a lot. And when I do continue to push I stuff up and am clumsy and do silly mistakes.
Do you have a sleep disorder? I have hypnogogy and see things at night. I am asleep and dreaming but am aware of my surroundings so it like my dream is happening in my room. Yes! But I believe in the Paranormal - so that helps with explaining this phenomenum. So that is my self help regime, in fact I enjoy the strange experiences.
Do you find it difficult to muster the energy to do things sometimes? Do you find yourself snapping at your loved ones even though you don't mean too? Do you have negative thoughts about you abilities even though those around you think highly of you but you feel if they knew the truth as you see it they would think you are worthless? Do you beat yourself up mentally? I am my own worst critic. My hubby is always telling me how special I am and I actually feel annoye because I feel he is lying - must believe in myself more.
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Welcome, Hobocat! I can't, however, answer your first question, what it's like to be on meds since I just started on meds yesterday. But I'm hopeful they will help everything you mentioned.
Good luck, and again, welcome aboard. You'll probably get your questions answered just by reading other posts. Or waiting for posts to yours.thanks to everyone who has replied so far. It's nice to know I'm not the only one who has all these symptoms.
Thanks BCgirl for talking about you anger towards you sister. The same thing used to happen to me too. It still bothers me.
I think what I find so frustrating is that sometimes I really feel like I can focus and get things done. I start to think that there is nothing wrong. Then it all falls apart. My house is a disaster, my car is a disaster, I get behind at work, I don't finish any personal projects yet I always feel driven to find something new to do.Does anyone else have problems with getting lost in your own mind? I go through imaginary conversations or relive old conversations frequently. I will also be telling a story and stop midsentence. I get lost in my thoughts alot when I'm home esp when I'm playing with my little one. Do you get songs or words repeating over and over and over and over? OMG I do this all the time! I totally tune out and get lost in my own thoughts. I also get songs stuck in my head ( I have a 2 year old, so they are usually the annoying Wiggles or Barney variety LOL).
Is watching TV calming for you too? TV totally calms me down, so does the computer.
During the day when you are at work, do you ever have the very strong urge to go home? When you are doing a project, do you feel like you are pushing through a mental barrier to get it done? It's almost painful? YES, YES and YES! :D
Do you have a sleep disorder? I have hypnogogy and see things at night. I am asleep and dreaming but am aware of my surroundings so it like my dream is happening in my room. I don't have a sleep disorder per se, but I have always had a very hard time going to sleep and staying asleep because there is just tooooo much going through my head all the time. Although now that I am on dexedrine I sleep a lot better. Funny eh, what is speed for most people actually can put me to sleep
Do you find it difficult to muster the energy to do things sometimes? Do you find yourself snapping at your loved ones even though you don't mean too? Do you have negative thoughts about you abilities even though those around you think highly of you but you feel if they knew the truth as you see it they would think you are worthless? Do you beat yourself up mentally? If I am not on my Dex, yes, totally find it hard to get things done. I mean I want to, and I mean to, but I just can't seem to do it. As for snapping, well I seem to have that under control for the most part. My husband and my mum are excellent at just letting me vent and get out my frustrations through talking and not me freaking out
As for negative thoughts about my abilities, yes. I feel like a fraud, don't ask me why, because I am always true to myself and don't lie about myself or anything, but ya, I do feel that way. Do I beat myself up mentally? I still do, but therapy is helping with that. I used to be really bad before I was diagnosed with ADHD (which was back in August '04). I've felt like a failure my whole life. I was always told "You have so much potential!" blah blah blah. I always knew that too, but it was like standing at one side of a road and not knowing how to get across it when it just seems so simple for others. That probably doesn't make any sense but it does to me haha Tell me what you think! I'd like to hear I'm not alone....... You are not alone! That is what I love about this board, is realizing I am not the only one out there who thinks this way!
Yes yes yes yes yes yes yes to everything you asked, except the med question because I am not on meds (yet). I watch a fair bit of tv but I HAVE to be doing cross-stitch in the meantime. If not I start feeling like my bones are going to jump right out of my skin. I get immensely restless unless my hands are occupied with something interesting.
I experience the hallucination-type dreaming too. I still remember the first time it happened, I was 12 and on an overnight camping trip. I was sort of falling asleep, and could still feel the ground under my back, the sleeping bag, etc, and I suddenly had a vivid image of a bunch of kids running down a hill. I could hear them laughing and yelling. It startled me so much that it jolted me "awake". It's happened MANY times since then, and now I am used to it and find it rather fascinating. Dreams in general have always fascinated me anyway. Edit to add: I've also had dreams where I knew I was sleeping, and have tried to wake up only to find that I am completely paralyzed. I can't open my eyes, I can't move my legs, I can't do anything. These are not so fun.
As for the snapping - my anger issues have really come under control over the past 2-3 years. When I was a child, I used to hit my little sister if she didn't want to play what I wanted to play, and as I got older, I would simply snap at people for the slightest thing. Or I would hit innanimate objects, like the wall or a countertop. I don't do that anymore, though I certainly feel like it sometimes. I guess a few bruised arms and wall repairs finally got to me.
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[QUOTE=hobocat]Hi! newly diagnosed add and I have a few questions from people who have been here too. What is it like to be on meds. I am currently on Zoloft for pure O ocd. Does the constant train of thoughts ever slow down? Are you able to get things done without constant mental "hand-wringing" and turmoil?
I hallucinated badly on Zoloft - so can't help you there. But yes definately if you find the right med - usually through trial and error - you will find some mental peace.
I did not like Zoloft...it made me feel weird..I now take Lexapro and Adderall
Does anyone else have problems with getting lost in your own mind? I go through imaginary conversations or relive old conversations frequently. This is called internal dialogue - meditation helps this problem I have the internal dialogue constantly I reherse everything before and after even what I am going to write you in this post...is running through my head..LOL
I will also be telling a story and stop midsentence. I get lost in my thoughts alot when I'm home esp when I'm playing with my little one. Do you get songs or words repeating over and over and over and over? Not so much now - but through my 20's a hell of a lot. I allways do this and that it why I prefer e-mail to phone calls or in person conversations...because if I notice a certian body language or a bird in the sky..I will for sure forget or loose the nerve for what I was saying
Is watching TV calming for you too? TV bores me - I find being on the net and forums calming. Sort of calming LOL - except in that divorce thread - not so calming LMAO. I can't sit still enough to watch the tele..however if I am thinking I enjoy it on and I stare at it while I am thinking ...but have no idea what is on.
During the day when you are at work, do you ever have the very strong urge to go home? When you are doing a project, do you feel like you are pushing through a mental barrier to get it done? It's almost painful? Yes, a lot. And when I do continue to push I stuff up and am clumsy and do silly mistakes. I have spoke about this before...I in school would get out of my seat and run out of the classroom...leave school and not return...(my daughter did this once too)...at work I would watch the clock until the very min that it was time to leave and run out...also I would leave for lunch and not come back...or just leave hoping no one would notice I was gone.
Do you have a sleep disorder? I have hypnogogy and see things at night. I am asleep and dreaming but am aware of my surroundings so it like my dream is happening in my room. Yes! But I believe in the Paranormal - so that helps with explaining this phenomenum. So that is my self help regime, in fact I enjoy the strange experiences. I believe in things that can't be explained ....the only time I had one of the types of dreams you are describing is when I was little and I swore I was awake and a very large spider crawled out of the wall next to my daybed then a hand came out to get it....but even though I thought I was awake I couldn't scream or move...so I am sure I was asleep. I like to describe other things that happen to me regulary as a hightened sense of awarness. I don't tell anyone about it because I don't want them to think I am crazy...so I keep it to myself..one of the things is I have dreams..and the next day something not all but parts of the dream will come true...this happens so often I don't pay attention to it anymore.
Do you find it difficult to muster the energy to do things sometimes? Do you find yourself snapping at your loved ones even though you don't mean too? Do you have negative thoughts about you abilities even though those around you think highly of you but you feel if they knew the truth as you see it they would think you are worthless? Do you beat yourself up mentally? I am my own worst critic. My hubby is always telling me how special I am and I actually feel annoye because I feel he is lying - must believe in myself more. I too am my own worst critic....but I know I have great potential. I used to snap at loved ones...but since meds I don't do it anymore
Tell me what you think! I'd like to hear I'm not alone.......[/QUOTE]
[/QUOTE] I'm not on meds yet, so dont know what to tell you about how that changes your life.Does anyone else have problems with getting lost in your own mind? I go through imaginary conversations or relive old conversations frequently. Yes, I seem to relive old conversations etc in my mind and change the outcomes. Or, if I have to make a phone call sometimes I'll rehearse what I have to say. Seems to keep me more on target with the subject of the call.
I will also be telling a story and stop midsentence. Yep!
I get lost in my thoughts alot when I'm home esp when I'm playing with my little one. Yes, especially when its a mind numbing kiddie game or puzzle
Do you get songs or words repeating over and over and over and over? No
Is watching TV calming for you too? Can't sit still long enough to watch!
During the day when you are at work, do you ever have the very strong urge to go home? Yes -I think that is because home is where I think most clearly, and my unconcious mind wants to go there when it is not thinking clearly
When you are doing a project, do you feel like you are pushing through a mental barrier to get it done? It's almost painful? Oh yeah- and mostly its when I'm trying to get a project started
Do you have a sleep disorder? I'm not sure, but I've always had trouble falling asleep and anything wakes me up
Do you find it difficult to muster the energy to do things sometimes? Do you find yourself snapping at your loved ones even though you don't mean too? Do you have negative thoughts about you abilities even though those around you think highly of you but you feel if they knew the truth as you see it they would think you are worthless? Do you beat yourself up mentally? Yes, but the good news is that therapy has really helped change these things, especially the negative thinking and mental beating up. Its a hard cycle to break if you've always been reprimanded or criticized since childhood, but it can be done and you can make yourself feel much better
Hi hobocat, thanks for sharing your story. Very interesting. I can most relate to you in that I can think about things incessantly. I was a very perfectionist person when it came to thinking, and I would always think something over and over and over again. I have become aware of this more over time, and have some fairly good coping mechanisims. There are days where I hit something: I get confused, bewildered, and begin to shut down everything else except whatever it takes to solve my philosophical problem, or whatever it is. The only things that have helped me with that are Adderoll, caffine, or having a "good day." In your last post, you talk about having all your ducks in a row, and when you think you've finally found something that works, it all falls apart. And why? Not much changed? I used to blame these short lived successes on myself and my ability to come up with a "better solution." I believed "normal" people had already known the "solution" because they were taught it or figured it out before me. I beat myself up over it. Until my psychologist convinced me that I had a MEDICAL DISORDER.
I believe that you know when you're tryinig hard, and no one can say that you havn't tried enough if you know you have. Make sure you are consulting a psychiatrist, a good one. There are plenty of bad ones. My psychologist (note difference) recommended my psychiatrist, and I trust my psychologist very much. Good luck.
Hi meatball,Thanks for the recommendation. I just changed psychiatrists. I am now going to one my psychologist recommended and I really like her. She is the one who diagnosed me with a definite attention problem. I also have a nasty case of Pure O OCD. The first psych I saw told me I was bipolar and had GAD, pulled me off the Zoloft and put me on 2 different antipsychotics, klonopin (which made me freak out) and lamictal (which I never took). The antipsychotics messed up my system VERY BADLY. I was very depressed and anxious after them and am just now getting back to normal. The whole time I was seeing the first psych he kept asking me how my mood swings were. I kept telling him I wasn't havign any because I only get them at that time of the month otherwise I just get a little snappy. The whole time I was asking him when the racing thoughts and obsessions would stop. He just kept upping my antipsychotic drug dose. Not a fun experience!