I have no real idea if I am ADHD or not. I have read through several websites and find the same general information over and over. There are several symptoms of ADHD that I display according to all of these general websites. It was not until I found this message board, that I got an idea of what this is all about. Any type of mental health issue is an almost absurd science to me. I have a hard time understanding the intangable world of the brain.
My entire life I have felt as though no one has understood me. Everyone is clueless as to what it is like to walk in my shoes. I have often wondered what the hell is wrong with me. It gives me great comfort to know that there is someone else out there that has been living with the same types of problems as myself. I want to thank everyone that has posted experieces from thier life. Not sure if I will ever seek professional help but there are people on here that have inspired me none the less.
I know exactly how you feel. I, too, have been going thru life the past 31 years wondering what the hell was my problem. I spent many years in school with the usual "she isn't living up to her potential" "if she would just apply herself, she could be a straight A student", etc. In adult hood I couldn't keep my house straight or organized. I have never been able to get to work on time. I have been told by countless people that I am lazy. I have started more "projects" than I can count-many of which have spent many years in storage unfinished. I started my own business (making charms for bracelets/necklaces). I received several orders but it takes me several months to complete. Thank God the store that orders them doesn't get upset about it. In August my mother passed away after a 2 year battle with cancer. At that time, I asked my doc to put me on antidepressant. Now, after being on the meds for 4 months, I am questioning its affects. I don't feel it is doing me any good. I began researching depression because after being on the meds and them having no effect, I began to realize I had been "this way" for as long as I could remember. I stumbled across some information about ADD and depression (how they often occur together). I contacted my doctor again and am in the process of demanding testing/diagnosis. I need the meds ( I think). I need some sort of "normalcy" in my life-whatever that is.I got a response from my doctor. She is in the process of setting up a referral for me to be tested for ADD. The process wasn't as hard as I had expected.
~~Renita~~