Ritalin!!- Please read | ADHD Information

ok ive been taken ritalin sinc i was in kdergraden maybe preschool and im not 15 and i stop takin it sometime after christmas and when i was young i would always have some kind of artritis pains i never knew what it was well about a week or so ago i have my first panic attack and now ive been really depressed and been havin panic attacks and just feelin like im going crazy i dont know if its from ritalin withdraws are what it is i been havin trouble breathin and now i have got a lump feelin in my throat when i swallow but sometimes it goes away like in the mournin i didnt feel it there i looked itup and other people got some lump feelin in there throat also and was told it was from stress i really dont know what to do dont want to get on any other harmfull medications my moms gonna put me on childrens focus factory should i take it .. is it safe will it help me? the reason why i take childreans is because i have always had a fear of swalloing pills well please post and hellp me out give me some usefull info links somethin i just need help are you can send me an e-mail at ooitztrishoo@yahoo.com