Hi everyone,
I've been reading these boards for the last couple days, and some things are really starting to sound similar to what I've been experiencing for the last several years. I'm almost 23, been through 3 on/off semesters of college, and I feel like I'm wasting my time and money with school. I've been working between semesters to save money. This past fall I attended my 4 semester. I was sitting in class one day, and I started daydreaming and drawing in my notebook. I told myself, "Pay attention, your wasting your time and money!", but I didn't listen to myself. I have to be daydreaming or drawing; something to keep my mind stimulated; something creative with my mind. In another Marketing class, I ended up writing a 5 page theory on human cliques, and grouping. The instructor said, "Okay, and be sure to read chapters 11 and 12; see you next time.", and I was like, "what the hell did I just do for an hour and a half???" I became really frustrated with myself, thats why I'm taking another semester off. I'm really want to complete my degree, and I'll do whatever it takes.
My parents say I'm just lazy, and I wonder if I am. I really have to work on my time management and organization skills, but I'm sure the majority of all people struggle with that. My parents were telling me to focus, MAKE yourself focus! I told them that sometimes I can't! I tell myself to, but I literally can't!
I'm thinking about going to the doctor, to see what he has to say, because I've got to get a handle on myself. Sometimes I feel like I can't go on like this. I'm a 23 year old young, not a rowdy kid. It seems very strange sometime.
Thanks for listening,
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