Obsessive | ADHD Information

I've got a very addictive personality. When I first found this board, I read almost every post! Than I signed up and did my first post before I left for work. I coulden't wait to get home to check. Was I ever suprised! I had at least 6 replies and knew I found a place to call home and that I wasn't alone. When I'm home, I'm always checking posts and finding someone else who has a "quirk" that I thought was just mine. When I was younger that addictive personality always got me into trouble (at 17, ANY drug that made me feel less like myself was a good thing) until caught.

As everyone here knows, when we find something of great interest, we're perfectionists! I spent almost a whole day making a very intricate necklace & pair of earrings. If I found even one bead out of place, I had to do it over.They turned out terrific and I get many compliments, but SHEEESH! A whole day? Lets keep it a secrete.

Editing my posts? I used to do it until I realized even after I did edit, I still found stuff I wanted to change. Lord knows, I'd still be editing my first post!. And I'll just say, I check the board VERY often, even while I was making the jewlery!

Hey Rona, what is exercise. Its been so long I don't think I can touch my toes anymore! I "mentally exercise" I think of myself doing sit-ups, the stairstepper, dumbells and lots of other stuff I used to do. I'm thinking it will "somewhere down the road gradification" Butt dosen't want to move now!

Actually, BOBEL, excercise is instant gratification for me, provided...always an "IF, isn't there?" IF I get my butt up to do it. So I guess you're right, it's not so instant.

I haven't been visiting all that long, but I find the board a comfort. each post I read I find that maybe im not defective, but belong to a creative group of caring people.

Here you find out why, and its comforting to know there is a rhyme and reason to it besides we are lazy, crazy or stupid.

Its heartning, at least it is for me. Giving me a feeling I belong here, a open place where I can be understood, not snicker at.

Does that make sense?

Of course, every word makes sense, Dave! I believe every one of us feels the same way. Right? I know I sure do.I agree that it's a great place to come.  I used to think some of the things I did, that concerned me, were something only I did.  It's so nice to know that I'm not alone, and to get a better understanding of myself through all of you. 

Rona, now that I think about it, dreams can provide an outlet for your emotions. I have the opposite problem, I cry to much! I can remember crying in dreams, and the next morning feeling better .

I can remember having active dreams. One I can vividly remember and I had the dream over 2 yrs. ago. I dreampt I was still doing this factory work and I had almost the same dream 3 nights in a row. I had the job at 17. Working long hard hrs. Now at 47, waking up after that was incredibly exausting.

Thanks, Rona, you always know how to put things in perspective.

Esperanza, it's my understanding that when you dream of exercising, it can be quite beneficial. Like when I dreamed of crying a week ago, and it was very therapeutic, since I hadn't cried in over two years, either in my dreams or awake.

Haven't you ever had such an active dream, you woke up exhausted?    I suppose it's better to at least think about it, than do nothing. This is a great place to be. It is such a relief to see that others out there do think like me. Its been pretty hard thinking that I'm a weirdo or something. I'm obsessive about anything I like-and being a Red Sox fan makes it even worse:) Anything that I feel interest in I can't even help myself someimes, from wanting to read, know all about it. Even at work I have to always watch myself and make sure I'm not slacking off. You should see me with fantasy, baseball, football, and basketball its nutso. I also am very addictive to people, things, drugs, foods, gambling, games, you name it and it could be an addiction for me. This site has been great though, it really has. Thank you all for being brave enough to talk about such personal issues and I'm sure al lot of what is mentioned we have all hid from people for a long time. It is so good to talk about the feelings I've had and not have people look at me like some kind of two headed nut job.
Thanks:)

Sounds just like me, I spend free time on the computer or i will still be logged on and will come back to it a few (ok more than a few) times a day/night.  It is so nice to relate to people that have the same unique features as myself!!

This site has helped an incredible amount cuz my friends just think i am nuts anyway!  Plus they dont listen when I tell them about ADD almost like they have ADD themselves  OR it is called selective hearing

Yellowdog, I do the exact same thing. I check this board about a 100 times a day while I'm at work. My work is done 99.9% at a computer, so I can keep the message board minimized while I work on my other stuff.

It frustrates me when I check in and there are no new posts. LOL. Then I start to realize that most everyone else probably has a life, and/or may actually care about their jobs.

Does anybody find that they go back into their own post that they themselves wrote and read it 100 times and edit, edit, edit, edit, to make sure that it is perfect?

I will sometimes even go back to a post I wrote several days ago and read it over and over and over, to make sure what I said sounded correct, and did not sound stupid or offensive....

Maybe I'm just crazy...

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Does anybody find that they go back into their own post that they themselves wrote and read it 100 times and edit, edit, edit, edit, to make sure that it is perfect?

I will sometimes even go back to a post I wrote several days ago and read it over and over and over, to make sure what I said sounded correct, and did not sound stupid or offensive....

Maybe I'm just crazy...

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Uhhh... I guess we're both crazy then....
I was obcessive the first  month or two( look at my join date and post count lol). I  backed off  a bit as  the adhd  became much less an active issue in my life and much more  a  well treated disorder.I suppose if I didn't spend so much time at this board, I might be able to get some other things done. huh...obsessive? I think soooo, Yellodog.

I've been waiting for a call from my Dr over two weeks, and I don't have DLS, and use my only phone line to check this board....sure wish my dr had email...then she could email me: "Ronna! Get the heck off that computer!"

I definitely have an addictive personality. Now, why do you suppose it's not as easy to become addicted to things that are good for us? (other than this board, of course) Why are bad habits easiery to create than good habits???instant gratification !!!  drugs, gambling, shopping,  one night stands, driving fast,  are about instant gratification. Exercise, diet changes, saving money   all deal with gratification tommorow for today's behavior...I  am hard wired for the instant stuff myself and not living that way  is really work even with helpHeck yes!!  I am the same way.  I have an addictive personality, so if I like something, I can't get enough of it.  I do this with message boards, computer games, or just any little thing I get hooked on, even certain foods.  If I try something new and I love it, I do it until the point of burning myself out on it.

 

Michele -

Thanks.

 

I have found that since I joined this board a few weeks ago, I check it all the time.  i check it and sometimes reduce it on my computer, then check it again several minutes later.  I go do something and then check it again, etc.

I really like the board and appreciate your posts.  However, i think i'm probably being a little obsessive.

I think i've done this with other things before too -

I wonder if this happens with others who have add or if this obsessiveness is it's own seperate issue.

has anyone else experienced this?