Feel at wits end! | ADHD Information

You're pondering things that don't need to be pondered, John. It's very obvious you're new to the diagnosis. Just remember this...you've always had, a diagnosis doesn't really change anything unless you decide that you need to change to improve your life. If you need more help, do the research, find a qualified psychiatrist and psychologist that can meet both medication and emotional needs.

You're going to be fine and intellectual semantics won't advance your intentions.

Primarily,

I have what I consider to be “Adult ADD,” and just coming to the realization and the accepting of this predicament.

I am attempting to progress forward on goals to resolve what I contemplate to be the whole preponderance from which I have permitted my life the privilege of an impediment of complete disorder!

To try to self identify is absolutely and without question -- a situation from within itself, for I do not comprehend my proceedings in the episode of daily routine; personally, I am continuously battling with myself; let alone society, as if this was not an issue either.

Just less then thirty-five minutes ago, I abandoned yet another job and I am at wits end!

I feel as if the help that I am receiving is not adequate to my beneficially needs, leaving me peculiar thoughts that I care not discuss with total strangers.

The facilitative exuberance from what was, has long warn away, and my compulsion compels me deeper into this state of melancholy!

Is it worth another day; but of course is it not worth it either?

Will this apprehension and gap fulfill a new outlook or am I just in denial of excepting that in fact there is not help from outside of self-determination for that of my own survival.

John Spicer

AKA...Kwai Chang Caine

Kwai Chang Cain38434.8607986111

 

How depressed are you?

Hi John- welcome to the board! I think you'll find the people here to be supportive and full of interesting stories, many of which may mirror your own.

How did you come to realize that you might have add?

What kind of help are you recieving- I see that you say that it neither seems to be adequate nor beneficial, which is unfortunate. I fully reccomend getting diagnosed by a professional (psychiatrist, psychotherapist or someone like that) and trying to move forward from there. You can recieve therapy, medication, and treatment for both the add and also for the depression that it sounds like you may be suffering. Ive only been in therapy for a few months, but it has really turned my world around.

And believe me, most of us understand the saying goodbye to yet another job thing- goes with the add territory. Dont ask me how many jobs I've held! It really takes finding your niche and digging in. Hang in there- just takes timeJohn, I'm glad you at least had the incentive to come to this board and post how you are feeling. You say you are getting help of some kind, albeit you feel it's not adquate.

One very good aspect of this board is we really are not strangers and that's what make it so much the easier to express how we feel here. There is no threat.

May I ask, however, have you considered calling a local mental health crisis number, something I did which led me to the help I needed for a long-time depression and after I had also just lost my zillionth job. I wasn't thinking the 'worst,' but definitely felt lost and feeling I didn't belong anywhere. They directed me to somewhere I could talk open and freely. And from there, I received support and guidance.

Depression is so common with AD(H)D adults who have lived undiagnosed for so long, and it's understandable.

We are here to listen, John, should you care to open up to us.GypsyWomyn38434.8005092593I've held as many as 6 jobs in one year - fired from one, quit the rest, finally ended up working for a temp agency. I'm now in therapy, happy and living a completely different life.

So, please, don't feel like leaving or losing your job is any sign that everythings are going down the toilet.   Living with add is never easy, but with medication and therapy, you do gain a whole new perspective on life.

Thank you both for responding,

To answer your question Yellow-dog, I feel more anger with rage as opposed to depression on nearly all occasions, however, when I am depressed it is those very abnormal thought that make me question my own sanity ( what is normal?) and this is very weighing on my mind, but then minutes later I snap out of it and all is forgotten.

Now, to answer you chocoholic, I am receiving help though a state ran facility! It is very annoying to say the least, I have been going weekly for one and a half months and have yet to get a full evaluation.

It is if they are not concerned with what I feel to be, as to the contrary from what appears to be unprofessional factors. This is all well and good, seeing it is only my personal opinion but still it leaves me to question the aid in total!

My compulsive manner makes me feel as if they’re not worried with what I feel due to the situation from within my own frame of mind!

I tell this therapist that I had this problem in childhood which in this case was ADHD, not at all the same as today’s increasing situation, yet she seems if she is looking for something else as opposed to it possibly being ADD!

I am finally going to receive a mental evaluation next week but haven’t received this phone call!

Anticipation is a murderer!

Kwai Chang Cain38434.814525463

[QUOTE=GypsyWomyn]John, I'm glad you at least had the incentive to come to this board and post how you are feeling. You say you are getting help of some kind, albeit you feel it's not adquate.

One very good aspect of this board is we really are not strangers and that's what make it so much the easier to express how we feel here. There is no threat.

May I ask, however, have you considered calling a local mental health crisis number, something I did which led me to the help I needed for a long-time depression and after I had also just lost my zillionth job. I wasn't thinking the 'worst,' but definitely felt lost and feeling I didn't belong anywhere. They directed me to somewhere I could talk open and freely. And from there, I received support and guidance.

Depression is so common with AD(H)D adults who have lived undiagnosed for so long, and it's understandable.

We are here to listen, John, should you care to open up to us.[/QUOTE]

 I will try to, being I am not very good at giving  (what some find easy) apparent information about myself!

Thank you for writing back people, it has helped reassure me a bit. 

Kwai Chang Cain38434.8602430556John, I may have said I got support and guidance, but that was AFTER I spent two years with a State-appointed counselor. I can relate!! It was like they felt we have no knowledge of ourselves, I mean after all, what do we know, we've only lived with ourselves for our whole life! It took two years and a different councelor to finally get a proper evaluation.

I do wish you luck and hope you find some relief communicating with those of us here with whom you can relate.