just talked to my doc. Her assessment is this is a medicine driven issue. We are going to back off the welbutrin and maybe take another tac. Try ritalin maybe. but definitely not this. She said if I had been depressed or anxiety laden before this could be an exacerbation of something underlying but to never have been that way ...seems to be too much of a coincedence to now be unpleasant and withdrawn consistently. SO we will see.
I say this often on this board, but I really get the feeling that adhd, though it might be there, is not your biggest problem. What exactly, are you trying to change about yourself?
Ok so I am wondering what to do here. I am at a point in this add med experiment that I can't seem to get clear.
I am 37 and recently diagnosed with adhd. I have always had a suspicion but the recent diagnosis of my son was the catalyst to try and improve my life as well. So The tale begins on day 3 of teh adderall xr trial... complete and total anxiety as the drug wears off. To the point of massive personal doubt and fear and hate. Day 4 same as before only worse. So my doc prescribes welbutrin as a bolster against the down effects. Takes a bit of time but seems to work a bit. Adderall is making me focus better. up the dose of Adderall over the next month to 40 mgs and 300 mgs welbutrin. So month later and am trying to cope.
I have always been a person people could count on to be happy, funny, and unaffected by depression or anxiety. Now I am anxious and grumpy and antisocial and as my wife says ...no fun to be around. Oh yeah and I have the neat feature of having a meltdown about once a week. just verbal diarrhea. Hateful mean tirades that are really starting to kill my relationship.
So what do I do? AM I anxiety stricken? Is this something that was always there but is now obvious. Are the meds to blame?
I have switched myself to adderall regular release and found that my mood has improved. But yesterday while not wanting to take one in the afternoon I was caught off guard by old habits...mental startle, ill timed response...sent into obsessive anger over an issue and then boing boing boing tangent city and unrelated isuues and an argument I couldn't seem to get free of. I want this stuff to work but I am not really enjoying the negative effects it is having on my social withdrawal and my outward effect on those around me.
Any advice? Change meds? stop for a while? Therapy ? thanks in advance.
I have always been the classic underachiever. Skipped 2 grades in school ..then didn't graduate. Constant barage of new hobbies and interests. A complete laundry list of unfinished projects. So I was very excited to change the finishability of my life. the follow through if you will. I have not been short on drive or short on creativity...just no ability to organize and complete. Easily distracted. I have also always been verbally impulsive. I did improv for years and also some stand up. Mildly successful.
But now instead of a few...maybe three times a year of letting loose. I seem to be doing it on a once or twice a week basis...and soem of the issues have become very irrationally big deals. Making mountains out of mole hills you might say.
Although I have been much more task focused...finished the LR remodel, fence redo, and office remodel that was started 3 yrs ago. Did that in two weeks. Also much more able to keep my tasks in mind. Like shopping items and return phone calls. But the anti social anxiety driven episodes are a new feature I am not used to or equipped to deal with.
I also have some issues with the meds. I only take them when I need to get stuff done. I definately think you should stop for a while and see how it goes.