I'm freaking a bit. I'm in the process of having my son diagnosed/classified, whatever you may call it. The phone calls, the appointments, the dead ends etc. I also need to get myself diagnosed as ADD, and *that's overwhelming me too, in addition to catching up on gyno appointments and the like. I also need to have something done for my 16 yo, since her therapist recommended her seeing a neurologist as well. I work 6 days a week so my time is limited. I *have to work or I don't get paid and it's mind boggling.....no it actually sends me into a panic when I even think of all I have to deal with.
I'm taking trazadone, which my gyno gave me, and it's just making my anxiety even higher but it *does help me sleep.
I'm going over the edge. The day to day stuff I'm not even dealing with, whereas before I could at least get the bare minimum done. It's like I'm so freakin' stuck in the fear and the overwhelmingness, if that's even a word. I also have the world's worst insurance and somehow have to pay for all of my stuff cash, which I don't have. And the kids insurance will only cover nuerologists and psychiatrist in the county I live, which is NOT helping me at all. I can't find a pediatric psych or neuro!
I just needed to vent. I don't feel any better though, my head is just swimming with all of this stuff, all the time.
I don't think your posts are too long Heather. It sounds like you have a lot on your plate, and given with what you're dealing with, I think your doing as well as can be expected under the circumstances. I want you to know that you are definitely not alone...my wife and I are dealing on an ongoing basis with events that are overwhelming and seem to have no end, and leave us at times thinking there is no hope. But here we are, still alive and kicking, and fighting...take care.
P.S. Just got my twenty one month old son to do his first "Number 2" on the toilet. "Now" we have something to celebrate!
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I've decided that my posts are too long for anyone to read.[QUOTE=notanexcuse]I don't think your posts are too long Heather. It sounds like you have a lot on your plate, and given with what you're dealing with, I think your doing as well as can be expected under the circumstances. I want you to know that you are definitely not alone...my wife and I are dealing on an ongoing basis with events that are overwhelming and seem to have no end, and leave us at times thinking there is no hope. But here we are, still alive and kicking, and fighting...take care.
P.S. Just got my twenty one month old son to do his first "Number 2" on the toilet. "Now" we have something to celebrate!
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thanks for responding. It does help a lot to know I'm not alone. I *always think there is no hope, what's the point, nothing works out anyway, all the time.
congrats on the baby going on the 'potty' that's huge, IMO. My son still wears pull-ups at night at six years old.
loganmom/heather- if long posts are bad, then i am really bad. look at many of mine!
i get that totally overwhelmed feeling too. in fact, i've been feeling it a lot lately. i've got some major things going on, and i almost feel like a self-indulgent wuss compared to what you're managing.
you are doing far better coping than i could ever hope to. hang in there.
btw- i hope it's okay to worry and vent. if it isn't, i'm in a lot of trouble.
Heather, just because it FEELS overwhelming, doesn't necessarily mean that it is. That's just your feelings talking, not necessarily the reality. Take fairly identical situations, line up 10 people and you'll find 10 different reactions--many of them so different you'd never imagine talk was about the same situation. It's very much the experience of reality rather than the reality itself that makes the difference. That's often a very hard concept to get but a very useful one.
From what you said, it sounds like your first priority is to get yourself calmed down to the point where you can start sorting out the many issues you have to deal with. You might want to start by talking with your PCP (is that your gyno?) My experience with doctors is that if they know I can only afford one, they'll do their best to provide the care I need--even when it's technically outside of their specialty. If the med he/she gave you is making things worse, let your doc know that ASAP. There are so many now, they have lots of options until they find one that works for you--at least on a temporary basis which is sometimes long enough.
I recently got some Xanax for a crisis and found that it's terrific at providing calming when I need of it--like last night when I was caught at the top of the Chesapeake Bay Bridge in the middle of a terrifying thunder storm. I was an absolute wreck by the time I finally got home. Let's hear it for the Xanax!
I don't know if that's the best drug for you but I'd recommend talking to your doc about your need to get some pharmacological help so you're able to better deal with all that's on your plate. At least that's the priority I got from reading your post.
I currently have cancer for the second time, live in a cramped (and totally disorganized) RV, just lost two beloved pets, have a sick Mother--the list goes on and on--and most of the time people marvel at how well I handle what's on my plate. It's been a whole lot of emotional work, I can tell you. And the axe is still poised by stuff I haven't yet handled.
The Xanax is a help--just knowing it's there when I need it. Handling stress is critical when battling cancer, which in a way, is a blessing by providing the motivation to start doing it. It's always possible to change the way one looks at the content in ones life. That's not saying it's easy, just that it's possible. I just saw a documentary on TV about Ethiopia. And I thought I had problems. Whoa!
I hope this has helped a little. I truly wish you the best in getting your life the way you'd like it to be. Just keep at it to tame the beast. Once it knows who's boss, it will become far meeker and easier to deal with!
I can relate! I just got remarried and between he and I we have 3 daughters. Ages 16, 10 and 8. Not only do I and my daughter (the 10 year old) have ADD.....his 16 year old does too. She failed every class last year in school. We are moving her to a private school and holding her back a year. That along with other things that we hope will help.
SOOOOOOOOOOO........it gets nuts at out house. But you know what? I wouldn't have it any other way. I just can't believe how blessed I am to have met such a wonderful man and to have such a wonderful family.
Hang in there!