Not sure how to start. All my life i have felt trapped in my brain. I have always been considerd an air-head, a worry wort, lazy, a day dreamer, does'nt follow direction, etc. etc. . I've always felt like i was missing something and can't make decisions because of this. It's like i have all these ideas and i can't choose any for fear it might not be i don't know the most exciting maybe? This only gets me depressed because i end up doing nothing. I learned NOTHING in school, i just kind of muddled through the system. I am 30 yrs old and have no skills at all. I can't even clean my house. It seems like what takes people a few hours to do takes me days. I am a mother of 2 and feel an overwhelming need to get my head out of my hind-end, but i don't know how. I happened across ADD in adults articles and had an "oh my gosh moment" Could it be this? Please tell me.
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Hi Leah...you sound so much like me. I am a nurse, love to read, got decent grades in everything but math but always was such a daydreamer. I felt so bad about myself. Really felt like a failure and the recent breakup of my marriage didn't help things. When I was alone, things seemed to really fall apart. I was recently put on Concerta and have noticed a difference-and so has everyone else. Nothing seems so overwhelming for me anymore and I am, for the first time, sleeping without a sleeping pill. The doctor also had put me on Effexor XR for depression and adhd symptoms but I was grinding my teeth..that had to go!!! So, now I am on Concerta alone. You need to look in the phonebook for a good psychiatrist or neurologist in your area. It is a shame that such a nice person feels so badly about herself. You deserve a happy life!Goodness, That is me too!! I do have a job.. I do struggle with what I want my career to be though. It changes with the wind! I too hear what you are saying about house work, and responsibility. I have an issue with $$$$$$$, I create my own debt. I am so forgetful. I forget to balance my checkbook. I pay so much in overdraft fees its rediculous. If I had all that money, I swear to you I could go pay cash for a new car. I know that sounds terrible. Its like I can get it together for one thing, but totally screw up another. I am an airheaded, forgetful, well I cant say lazy, because I do spend too much time trying to accomplish things that just send me in circles. I may appear that way to people who don't know me if they saw my house. I work too hard and accomplish too little. I think i am a perfectionist and spend to much time trying to perfect. I pay too much attention to detail. I get distracted and bored too easily tho. I have been on meds for the past year, and yes, the help tremendously with helping me to stay on task. It doesn't work magic, its not a "cure" you have to take advantage of being able to stay on task, and kick yourself in the butt and make yourself do it. Just makes it easier to do that. Of course My doctor thinks I need a higher doseage...and maybe thats why I have to be so hard on myself. I found out that I have a pretty serious case of the "Busy Head". I don't consider myself stupid by any means. I think I pretty damn smart. I have an IQ of 127. But I still have too much thought going on up there to make me stay on focus. My coworkers and friends think I am the queen of all worriers. I think everything is a big deal to them. And I get to excited and anxious about things I cannot control. Of course to me, I think they just don't realize what I go through.
I work for a very busy internal Medicine Residency Program. You would be amazed if you knew how many physicians are ADHD/ADD. Our Chief Resident a few years back, is EXTREME for real!! He is now a hospitalist and one of our attendings, which is probably right where he needs to be, walking hospital halls, from one in to the other not having to sit down in a private practice setting. We have another who is an assistant Professor of Medicine in Geriatrics, he has a good case too. Everytime I see him, he is walking so fast he should be running.
I think that we just have to find our calling, what we were meant to do. Quit thinking we cant do it. thats my problem too. I am considering opening my own daycare...I know that sounds crazy with my personal financial deal...but I deal with bookkeeping in my current job and I am damn good with theres...lol Its amazing I know. I think I just need be in charge of something, run it the way I want it. I really think I can do it. I have great ideas that I want to put into action, and what better way than to create something with all my ideas. Anyway, here I go rambling on about me. Find a good psychiatrist. I would suggest psychiatrist vs. family physician. They think ADD is too commonly overdiagnosed, plus that is not there specialty so they just dont have that much experience and probably are not comfortable with treating you for that. If your family dr is fine with it, great! But I would not bet on it. Mine treated me for a while before he sent me to a psychiatrist anyway. Soooo, Good luck, I wish you the best with your therapy.