It's an insurance thing, they have to have my PCP refer me for them to pay for anything... Grrr...
Actually I have been a little more mello today. Which is nice, just very tired...
I'm ready for my long weekend. 
Thanks Ryan, It took a weight off my shoulders. Now I can look for things that help me, and ways around things that don't help me.
I'm looking now to maybe order some Kava Kava. I think it'd be great to find something that could help wihtout turning to meds with possible side effects.
If I order some (I strongly suspect that I will) I'll keep you all updated on how it helps, where I get it, etc.
autumn
Glad things are being sorted for U Autumnstar.

Keep with it, and remember you are not alone!
What an aggrivation... for me to keep seeing the doctor (counselor/psychotherapist) I saw yesterday, I NEED a referral from my PCP. You remember, the one that doesn't believe in 'such a diagnosis'... Anyway, the soonest I can make an appointment with him to get a referral is Aug 10th. BAH!
autumnstar
PCP? why do you need a referral to see the therapist? maybe you can find one where you don't need the PCP's referral.Well, I went to my appointment yesterday. I gave her my long list of symptoms that I've been dealing with since childhood. She definitely thinks that I 'fit the bill'. She said that if we want to find out exactly what type of AD/HD I have, we can do that.
She said that I'm doing a great job of coping with my symptoms, she feels that all the stress I'm going through is bringing my symptoms out more - 9 mo son, no full night of sleep at night, working full time, job in flux, 14 yo stepdaughter, we're taking ex-wife to court for child support, very busy with work/gym/tai chi classes, etc.
She gave me some things to watch out for physical symptoms to watch for when I'm getting upset so I can recognize them in the future and head them off. She told me to take a vitamin every day, try to get enough B Vitamins and Calcium. She said that I could try St. John's Wort for any depression or anxiety and she suggested that I might want to try Kava Kava (sp?) for my racing thoughts. She said that some people get a benefit from it, rather than going to meds.
She did say that my racing thoughts are typically treated by meds. If I try the Kava Kava and it doesn't help this aspect, then I might want to try the meds to see if it helps me.
She gave me some coaching about not being so hard on myself when I don't do something right. She gave me some ideas on rewarding myself to get through tough tasks that I typically try to avoid - which leads me to not completing tasks or some aspect of my job. She said that I have great self-awareness and I'm on the right track, that I should be proud of that.
So I think it really helped. She said that I can think about coming back if I want to talk about more things, try the meds, etc. I think it was a relief to be told that I'm on the right track. 
autumnstar