I can understand your anger. But one thing, maybe I missed it, how far away are you from Massachusetts? Too far to visit your brother often?
Anyway hang in there. I'm going through a bit of anger myself since I decided this week to go cold turkey, throw away all the pills. Adderall, Prozac. I've been on them too long and I just don't believe in all of the pharmacology anymore!
Daniel
You bitch alot there fukaiotaku. But then your name is Japanese for "offensive twit." In short life sucks then you die. No one can solve your problems but you. This however is just rampant selfisness. You have to find the joy where you can.
I don't know you but my impression is, from your constant bitchy posts, I don't like you.
Are you really like that? Let's see the pleasant side of you for a bit because I think your starting to wear on nerves around here.
[QUOTE=fukaiotaku]You know what shisetsu_hito you're right. Ever since I came to this board I've done nothing but bitch and I'm sorry. Actually in reality, that's all I've done to anyone else too. I am greatly sorry. I am truly not happy and haven't been for a long while ever since I got out of high school. I just haven't found that true happiness quiet yet. I shouldn't bitch and bring everyone else down when they come here to be cheered up. I will definitly look on the positives, plus this board is for positive things not negatives,right? Maybe I've been looking at this board the wrong way. Maybe alot of board members have. It's time I got my head out of my ass. I need to be more positive. And quit focusing on the negatives so much. It doesn't help much anyways.
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Well, you can certainly handle harsh criticism like a champ! I'd say there's always hope for someone who can do that.
[QUOTE=daniel1952]I can understand your anger. But one thing, maybe I missed it, how far away are you from Massachusetts? Too far to visit your brother often?
Anyway hang in there. I'm going through a bit of anger myself since I decided this week to go cold turkey, throw away all the pills. Adderall, Prozac. I've been on them too long and I just don't believe in all of the pharmacology anymore!
Daniel
[/QUOTE] I live in Indiana so we can go by plane or drive to Massachusetts. I really shouldn't complain, plus Massachusetts is a nice state and there's plenty of great food, like lobster.
[QUOTE=fukaiotaku] I'm just not myself today. I apologize[/QUOTE]
I think, I understand the way you are feeling. I tend to dwell on the negatives. I'm trying to quit the pity party I've been having for myself. It's hard to do at times...
You do seem to handle criticism very well.
I do think this forum is for both positives and negatives.
Keep working at it.
It wasn't an attack bluebird. I'm the same as fukaiotaku and I was trying to encourage her, you sound like a classic enabler though.
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You bitch alot there fukaiotaku. But then your name is Japanese for "offensive twit." In short life sucks then you die. No one can solve your problems but you. This however is just rampant selfisness. You have to find the joy where you can.
I don't know you but my impression is, from your constant bitchy posts, I don't like you.
Are you really like that? Let's see the pleasant side of you for a bit because I think your starting to wear on nerves around here.
[/QUOTE]You know what shisetsu_hito you're right. Ever since I came to this board I've done nothing but bitch and I'm sorry. Actually in reality, that's all I've done to anyone else too. I am greatly sorry. I am truly not happy and haven't been for a long while ever since I got out of high school. I just haven't found that true happiness quiet yet. I shouldn't bitch and bring everyone else down when they come here to be cheered up. I will definitly look on the positives, plus this board is for positive things not negatives,right? Maybe I've been looking at this board the wrong way. Maybe alot of board members have. It's time I got my head out of my ass. I need to be more positive. And quit focusing on the negatives so much. It doesn't help much anyways.
Now you're getting it. :-) You can do it.I just recieved news that my oldest brother the one that I really get along with is leaving for Massachusetts this Saturday. And the thing is, he and his family are staying there permenatly this time. I'll start from the beginning, my brother has a family a wife, 3 children. His wife grew up in Massachusetts. And there have been several times that they have had to move to Massachusetts, due to family issues. They would migrate from either here where he just was staying back around the holiday or to Boston. The reason why they're going back to Massachusetts is because of his job (it would be better for him and his family). Right now I am feeling rather angry, and as if, okay you're just going to leave again. So, leave I don't give a crap (but I do) I'd want to see him one last time, but he's too tired to see anyone, they've been getting the house ready to put it up for sale. Actually, I've been in a bitchy mood all day and I don't know why. I really hate the fact that I'm this way. Last Friday I had thoughts of suicide, I blew up in my beautician's face, we have my 19 year old sister living with us until the middle of August and frankly she's being a brat. I don't have any close friends where I live. I don't feel happy, we also just brought home a stray cat a few days ago. So now we have 2 dogs and 2 cats. Sorry, I'm just not myself today. I apologize