Has any1 wondered what we would be like without ADHD,I sure would like to know but will never find out as this is something I have to deal with for life.Since I was 7yrs old I have been a nightmare for my Mum.I'm 18 in 2months & still I can have my moments of smashing the house up,getting angry if I can't get my own way.I repeat myself all the time,always talking about things that are not going to happen for ages but I like to plan ahead although I get let down alot in my life(Maybe cos people don't give me a chance some of the time) It's like most of the time I'm not me its like Im always talking through my ADHD,the things I say I sometimes think If I didn't have ADHD I would not have said that but I can't help saying things that are out of the ordinary Cos it's not me really its the condition I've got. Only family & close family friends know about my ADHD. Sometimes I wanna tell people but it's hard cos once its been said there's no going back I may lose people forever & I need to hold on to the people I got cos its hard for me to make friends,Most of my school life I was on my own I had one mate who gave me a chance although she knew nothing of my problems but still wanted to know me after the weird things I did at school,But now we are no longer mates.When I do get close to people I always think that I'm gonna lose them so maybe over crowd them always wanting them to put me first, always needing to be centre of attention competiting to be the only mate when their others mates are important but me needing to be if you know what I mean.