Hi guys; Well...I took my AMEN tests yesterday plus the computer "strobing box" test; and will find out the results today. This is probably the first time in my life that I HOPE I have a disorder. Wierd huh! I guess that after reading so many of your posts; I'm pretty convinced this can be fixed. (If it turns out that I do have ADD or ADHD) I was thinking last night......
As a young person; (20s) I turned to alcohol to "feel normal" The thing is that I didn't use alot of alcohol. Just a beer or two occasionally would help me calm down and be able to get along with people. I didn't have much of a stomach for alcohol; and would get headaches real easy from using alcohol. (Not that there weren't times that I did over do it) I know this may sound kinda lame because I know that most everyone "feels" good on alcohol. But the thing is that I couldn't function at all. I didn't like being around people. But after about half a beer; I would calm down; my focus on life would change; and I would truly like to be around people. Even my wife noticed this back then in our 20s. If her sister invited us over for a BarBQue; she knew I wouldn't want to go; so she would pick up a six pack and offer me a beer on Saturday afternoon and then ask me after the beer if I would like to go see her family. Almost every time I would go "Sure! I love your family!" I didn't discover what she was doing for years! This was all over 10 years ago; and I quit drinking all together. But a couple of weeks ago; my neighbor asked me if I'd like to have a beer with him (We were out mowing our lawns) So; I did. And about half way through it; I felt normal. It had been so long that I had forgotton what "normal" felt like. I never really liked the guy until then. Don't get me wrong; I don't want to take up drinking. My dad was an alcoholic; and I saw first hand how it can tear a family to pieces. But I kinda wondered if that "effect" (not the buzz; but the calm) is what I can look forward to on the correct meds? I hope this made sense