Losing my ********* mind. | ADHD Information

Torture away! Dont ya love how insurance determines who assists you with your mental health?!?

Hope things get better for you soon.haha maybe in your country.. I think maybe our insurance companies are afraid of head cases because I seem to get my own way as far as docs go. Maybe they're afraid I'll get worse and need more drugs so they're trying to nip it in the bud by letting me choose whoever.Your doctor should have an emergency number to call.  It must be hard for you to be suffering like you are.  Your wife does have an idea about going to an ER but If you can hang on until monday that would be better.  Hang in there.First, thanks for the kind thoughts. Last week was a tough one in general, but I had the opportunity to look at it unmedicated.

I think I put the cycling down to this:

1. I am a problem solver, I like to think creatively outside of the box to find a solution.

2. I have ADD, apparently ADD causes people to attack a problem the same way even tho it's already failed. During my neuropsyche tests I demonstrated that particular issue EXTREMELY well ( for those that may know this test, on the 'guess the item that comes next - shape, color, number - I went from 2 on numbers, 2 on shapes to 29 attempts for color).

Add those together and I think I simply decide I need to do something/solve something, and get caught in a logic loop, as i retry a failing solution over and over.

In the last 14 hours, while medicated I came up with an alternate solution that's almost as good, and instantly I'm 75% calmer.

Again, thanks for those who responded here and those that sent some good thoughts my way.
I hope you can see that therapist today, even if it is just to torture him :P  I know something like that makes me feel better ;)


I'm pretty sure that I'm coming unhinged today. Yesterday I was totally manic, all the obsessive behavior continued to spin out of control. By 6pm I was angry and ready to break things. By 8pm I was on the edge of a fugue state, and I passed out around 10.20. During those last 3 hours my wife was trying to have an argument/discussion with me - on topics like 'maybe you should get hospitalized' and 'i'm being understanding but you're obviously disturbed' and 'why does everything in your life have to be so BIG'.

Today I'm exhausted, cranky and off balance.

Oh yeah, the chemist wont fill my perscription because I used up my one months supply, stupid doc didnt change the presciption to show the dosage change. So no more meds until thats fixed.

I think I started a business last night, according to the phone call I just got from my business partner.

Life was way easier when I didnt think and just acted....of course, it had a habit of combusting with alarming regularity.

Just got to keep it together enough over the next two hours til its timeto see #2 therapist.........who I dont like working with, but is covered by my insurance, and available today. Maybe I can find a new way to torture him.