recently started taking adderall. the first time i took it, i took 20 mg at once twice a day and it did nothing but make me feel very depressed, un-motivated, and socially phobic. i was taking strattera and anti-depressants before but had stopped them a few weeks earlier. I stopped taking the adderall and just went around feeling brain dead till i decided to try and take it doubling the dose. the first time i took it at 40 mg it worked perfectly, i concentrated, i had motivation, i even lost my anxiety. I am taking 80 mg a day now, and it really hasnt done anything.
It seems like each time I start and stop the adderall it works the very first time i take it and then after that i just feel sluggish and scattered.
can my body really grow a tolerance to it so quickly?
is it maybe too much to take at once? what happens when you take too much?
could it be that taking a high dose immediatly has messed around with my brains functioning so that it requires constant dosage increases?
i feel like there is a lot i should be doing but i cant do any of it becuase i need to think everything through every detail before i make a decision or take an action yet my brain cannot stay on one thing to do even that and even when it can this weeiding out is too slow so i in effect become some sort of robot stuck in an engineering loop, frozen in time. i literally sit stone-faced in a chair for an hour or so at a time.
please help, i want my mind back. im tired of watching myself like a hawk to make sure everything is working as it should.
People generally fit into 2 camps, they do well on Ritalin and poorly on amphetamines or the other way around. Adderall doesn't help me but Ritalin does. However Ritalin dosing is a huge pain in the butt.I am amazed reading about the antisocial feelings on adderall.
Maybe they will come? I hope not. If anything I feel more outgoing, more confident since starting adderall.
Before I wanted to just stay home all day.. Not go out, not even bother.
Now I am doing all sorts of stuff. I can't sit still. I want to be out and around others. I've gone from a shy, don't want to talk to you person to a Can't stop taking person.
I know exactly what you mean... I have been on adderall for 9 months now and it worked great the first 5 months but now it seems like everytime i take it the effects seem to only last for an hour or so and then i just come crashing down with depression and anxiety and my moods are constantly changing, I feel so antisocial like its so hard to think and talk to people. It's horrible, but i can't function without it because when i'm off of it, it's even worse and i take 30 mg 2 times a day.