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I just need to vent. This is really turning into a patience test! First off; my psychologist didn't send her report to my MD when I showed up for my appointment. So he questioned me and gave me a kit for a free month of Adderall XR to try out. So; I went to the pharmacy with the kit; and they took my insurance info and the card that comes with the kit and sent me home until they could fill it later that day (which I found strange) When I came back at 5:00pm; he hands me the card and says "We can't do anything about this. You have to call and activate the card" GRRRRRRRR! I called him an idiot and stormed out! Then I went home and called the 800 # ; got the card activated by answering questions about the "ADHD diagnosed CHILD" (Hmmmmm. Shire Pharmasuticals don't know that adults have this disorder too?) Then I went down to the pharmacy at WalMart; and waited for 30 minutes only to have the pharmacist tell me they only had 20 in stock and that the order was for 30; so they would have to order it. GRRRR! (At least he was polite; so I didn't call him any names. He was very informative and apologised for being out of stock) What bunches my briefs is that this is all FOR a bad case of ANXIETY due to ADHD; and the mere process CAUSES anxiety! It's been 5 weeks since I first delved in to seeking a diagnosis for my "short fuse" and anxiety; and it's been the most stressful 5 weeks of my life. And now I'm scared to death that Adderall might turn me into a raving lunatic. What if it makes me more aggressive? I'm almost wishing that I had never started this process. It was easier going through life being wierd.

While I am at the last straw on my patience; I'm trying to laugh it off because with all the obsticals; this is either a Voodoo curse, or just an incredible string of bad luck which may turn around and .....who knows....... maybe I'll win the lottery or something! So far; there have been 14 strange obsticals (or hoops I have had to jump through between insurance people, pharmacists, PHDs, and MDs) in the last 5 weeks. It's gotta be a record of some sort! It was getting to the point where I was thinking I had lost my mind or something; so I had my wife come with me to my appointments , and she can't believe the incompetency either.

 Here's a tid bit you might get a kick out of. When I went to my MD yesterday; they brought me back; and weighed me as usual. The girl says "OK; your 157 pounds." I thought she was kidding, because I am 6' 1", and weigh 207. Then she takes my blood pressure and says "It's a little high; it's 157 over 101" AAARRRGGHHH! Talk about stress!  But I still thought she was kidding me. Then the doctor comes in and looks on his palm pilot which I guess she had downloaded to from her laptop computer. (They are pretty high tech there) He says "Your blood pressure is a little elevated" Then he turns red and says "I'll be right back" I'm thinkin; he must have seen the 157 pounds and went out to chew her out for messin the numbers up. He came back a couple of minutes later, and said "It's normal" Later; I checked my blood pressure at WalMart while waiting for my prescription; and it was 127 over 92. Sheeesh! Health care professionals! No wonder I'm cranky.

gr8art, I used to be very much like you describe yourself.  I was well known for having a short temper.  Adderall changed all that.  I found myself waiting patiently instead of fuming if I was caught by a red light.  In fact, I was stood up for a 1 on 1 meeting TWICE in one day (same guy) and it didn't bother me.  I spent the time going over my thoughts of the day, not in a rambling and haphazard way, but in a thoughtful linear way.  (I was considering changing jobs so I had lots to think about.)

I hope you get your meds soon, you won't believe the difference!