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Hi, I am 32 years old and recently diagnosed with ADD, as of last Friday. Ive known I had it for a few months now. My life has been an absolute living hell as I have a very acute case. I have never been able to keep a job for reasons you are all well aware of, and have had serious emotional issues for the same reasons. Shame, guilt, no self esteem etc..

Because I have never been able to hold a job, I have no insurance, because of reasons again that you are all aware of, I havent been able to do the things necessary to get any help. Now, I am being evicted, utilities are about to be shut off, I lost my car, Ive lost everything. I dont know what to do or where to go. I was given prescriptions for Straterra and Zoloft, but cant fill them because of no insurance or money. I feel like I just want to die sometimes and get it over with, but I know Im so much better than this. I dont have a private doctor, and I am applying to welfare, if I can do what I need to do to complete it, IVe done it before but when it comes down to it I get these overwhelming feelings of how much I can do on my own, so I feel I dont need them, I can do everything myself etc... Anyway, I just need to know how to get help when everyone tells me that because I have no income, I cant get help, and Im looked at like Im just lazy and my forgetfulness makes people think I dont care.

I have read all of Dr Hallowells books and feel so much better about myself inside now. I am focusing more on the good traits of the ADD than the bad things Ive felt all my life. I finally feel good about my future, and about the comapassionate caring sensitive person I am, Ive let go of alot of the past feelings Ive had of unworthiness etc.... I really feel like with meds and therapy, plus all the research I have done on my own about add, that this one last stumbling block of being evicted is tearing me up inside, and its only over 2k. I really feel thatonce this is past, Ill be able to focus on my future and getting better instead of feeling this devastation inside because ive worked so hard over the last 9 months to make myself better. This has just killed everything Ive done so far. Can anyone point me in the right direction? Im about to lose everyting and i fell its for no reason.....why at this point this has to happen when things were just starting to look up for me does this happen... Im sorry this is probably way to long, im just so scared and nervous now about what im going to do, thanks if you read this whole thing and can help in some way..... Thanks Gadge: let the medacine companies no you have no ins. as well as DR.'s you see. There are programs for people in your shoes. In some cities there is a county run office that will pay 1 month's rent with an eviction notice. They usually do this 1 time per year for you. What city are you in?gadgetolds, I am so sorry for what is going on in your life right now.  Many of us have been there, and I am somewhat there, right now.  Your on the right track with applying for welfare.  Next, try and apply for medicare.  Being unemployed, you should get it.  And then food stamps.  Don't be embarassed to do what you have to do to get back on your feet.  That's what these things are for.  Once you get on medicare, I  don't know where you are at, but in Maine, it pays for your doctor visits and your prescriptions, with a small copay (usually about -- but ifyou're unemployed, they'll even waive that).  Just keep your chin up, and know that you are a good person who happens to have more challenges than the 'average' person.  They don't know how easy they've got it.  Im me if you need someone to talk to :)

Thanks for this information... I am in Erie Pa. Unfortunately one month wont cover what I need. A "friend" of mine told me that she would help me get out from under this eviction a few weeks ago so I didnt bother trying to find help for it in other places. We were set to take care of everything this past Monday morning, same day as my court appearance for the eviction. Well Monday morning came and she dissapeared, she wouldnt answer the phone, emails or messages. So all day Monday and actually ever since I have been in a very wierd mood.

I had gone down to the office to explain what was going on and things were going to be taken care etc... Now I feel like a fool. And I cant believe she would just disappear on me like this. I just got the judgement that was entered against me for 32.32 today in the mail :( I dont know what Im going to do.... No one in town can help. Ive called churches, agencies, disablity, everyone I can think of.

I just had a room mate move in to help with this stuff a few weeks ago and I feel bad because he is getting booted to. Hes been workin his butt off to try and help the back rent get caught up etc... But, its to late now... And since this has already gone to court, its an all or nothing thing. If I had known she wasnt going to help, I could have worked out something with the office for payments, thats the worst part about what she did.

Im feeling a little hopeless right now because of this. It doesnt seem like this should be such a big deal because of my newly found esteem and all but, and I really feel that once this passes, which I hope it does by some miracle, that everything in my life will be ok now. Thanks for the help.... I really appreciate it.

The job I held the longest with ADHD is day care. For a few reasons. One, you have to constantly be up and moving and on your toes watchign kids so its never boring. Two, the day care centers have children set into strict daily schedules which means after a month of work you never have to remember anything, its all memorized in your head. The constant changing of arts & crafts keep you busy & you get your energy outside running after the kids.

With proper training, some of the elite schools pay day care employees very high.

Thanks for the idea on day care. Actually, because I do love kids I am going to go and get my degree in Pshycholgy to work with kids. Id like to work with post traumatic stress disorder. I want to make sure that no kid has to grow up feeling they cant be a winner in life. Even if something has happened to them. Thats my hope at least.... Of course, once this all passes lol