hi , i just found this nice forum, and I like the set up. My name is geno. If I stick around, some of you may dislike my posting, because i sometimes post long, but ill do my best to break it up. But the information I share is research I have done from books , other sites, my own experiences, and not at all to pursuade anyone to use a drug of anykind, nor am I a doctor, but a wanna be Scientist, LOL.
Ill start out with Adderall. Over the months, I visit some forums, and Adderall topics are really interesting, some topics are very anti adderall, or (its very addictive) others say its a god sent, or some instist its just the drug fooling them.
Well I have been on Adderall for 1 yr. I started at 20mg 2x a day, and now I am at 30mg 3x day, yes a higher dose, but the reason for the extra dose, sometimes moresoe you only see 2 doses is adderall wears off in 5 hrs for me, and I need 16 hrs coverage. I told me doctor this and he was willing to help me and try it and report any problems. SO far, and Im an ex addict to opiates, and did sit with my doctor, who is an addiction doc who perscribes suboxone which i still take low doses.
Lets just say in my case, or opinional , I like to weigh the good and the bad. The good that adderall has done and any bad addictive ways or side effects which hinder or put a nice dent in your life, legally, financially, health wise, etc.
My mind is not fooling me, because i notices with adderall, and after 4 yrs of trying so many meds, even clean for 1 yr and was still not responding to meds, ssris, Snris, you name it, 20 plus supplements, and workng out , this and that, I went back to my old ways of abusing alcohol and opiates, which took me down in a matter of weeks.
Adderall does not cause any problems with family life, It makes me very creative, I love to read, work out, do computer and visual things, my handwriting improved, I dont just stop tasks and leave , I can actually concentrate a bit too much maybe , hyperfocus. But i like this , I talk more, because I Hated myself being a hermit, and antisocial, resorting to drinking, and using, just to show face.
Some may argue, well adderall replaced that. Yes, but adderall is not causing any detrimental effects, besides one, sleep loss if I want to stay up and read, clean and research my site and what not. It can make you stay up an extra 12 hrs by just taking another dose, not even taking double dosage.
Now , A funny thing also occured, is my thoughts, seemed to normalize. I sorta am embarrased to say this but my thoughts were prior to my Adderall were very overbearing sexual, and I was always decieving and coniving, fighting, and so on. This all is in the past. I really feel my dopaminergic system deep in the Limbic region called the Nucleus accumens and the Ventral tegmental Area is the reward center for Dopaminergic neuronal output from amphetamines. Plus the other drugs like cocaine meth and opiates to an extent.
Adderall, ( a little psychopharm) releases dopamine and some norepinephrine and has very little reuptake like ritalin does , and vastly no seratonin properties like meth.
Adderall is 75 percent Dextro-amphetamine and 25 percent Racemic Amphetamine type. The latter actually is tuned to more Norepinephrine properties while pure Dextro-amphetamine is mainly Dopaminergic. It releases it Via the D2 receptor from the VTA to the Nucleus accumbens into the prefrontal cortex. The feedback mechanism is also a player and reticular activating system is closely releated to ADD.ADHD. Yes complicated from here. I may be wrong, confusing, but I just sometimes love to go deep into the brain to see WHY! How does such really happen.
I have tried Dex Spanuals and Ritalin, and Dexedrine actually was too "light" , the long acting versions dont really work at all for my brain, and Ritalin was a rollicoaster ride. Adderall is a smooth comedown, harly I notice , but Usually I will time my dosing every 5 hrs so by hr 6 when the salts are wearing off , I dont have much downtime. But sometimes its hard to keep this up and if I find 8hrs goes by , I sure can tell I missed my dose. I become less interested in things, and the ADD symptoms start creaping back with a feeling of dysphoric fatiuge which is not too pleasant but not like Opiate withdrawls.
As you see im trying to break each paragraph up so I dont cludder and cause anyone reading the post , appearing endless. But an option maybe some people may like is writing down an every day feelings journal and like setting a 1-10 or 1-5 grade on how they feel, on meds or what your experiences with adderall or add meds, and ADD symptoms itself occur. then after a week or so, go back and study the journal and observe any problem areas, maybe even taking it to your doctor if he or she works close with you and see how to titrate medications. I by no means am says everyone TAKE adderall, Im stating what and how it effects me and someone may relate. But most users do report that initial energy , motivation, speedy feeling , semi ephoric, but I dont really think its much Euphoric, but a good feeling, though my doctor did state if you are responding well to adderall, your add aspects and symptoms are diminished from the drug, which even though a temp mask, well i feel a heck of a lot better. I actually joke with my family, where in the past I never did Unless It was just a great day for somereason, or I was using illicit drugs.
Well to end this, I have like pages i could post ,but no I wont, I may check through the other forums and post . My objective is maybe someone who is really experiencing similar behaviors , good or bad, relates to my topic and can feel better. Some negative posts can really enflame people, Thats why if someone posts back "your an addict or face up, well, ill politely tell them to Privately emial me and I can really explain more in detail, its not my addiction , but explaining my entire backround and even details, heck , would turn into a book.
Feedback I a good thing, as long is its not personal degrative or disrespectful, but someone posting well , yes you have addictive tendoncies with adderall, I can agree, but so far 1 yr later, My dosage is the same as 10 months ago.
Peace