Yikes!
Baby steps...
At least you have this board to vent.
Hang in there.
Well - I think most people would have a melt down after a week like that, so son't be so hard on yourself. You are human, too.
There is so much on your plate right now - and the stress of not making ends meet just exacerbates everything. Not sure what to tell you about the whole situation, but do you have somebody outside of your family you can talk with and maybe get help getting things organinzed and back on the right track? Maybe taking things one step at a time wil help. Make a list of what must be done and then strategize with your husband on things that will help, things that are possible. Pick the low hanging fruit and move forward.
Personally, I would start with some really cheap paper plates so I didn't have to do so many dishes, and I'd feed everyone cereal at least one night a week so I would have that night to concentrate on something other than dinner.
Hugs to all of you! I hope Xandras ear is feeling better now.
I have been doing the best I can do here lately. I am on xanax .25 for my little (LOL) freak outs. I don't like taking them every day because they work less if you take them every day. At any rate I woke up late yesterday and rush rush rush to work after xandra took her adderall and I get the screaming 12 month old a juice and we all pile in the car with no gas that has been sitting on empty for two days then I get to work and realize I have forgotten a major thing and boom...meltdown...then after I get through that one I go home and my phone is disconnected...okay I go back to work and pay the bill online since it won't go through for most likely two days...then with that fire fought I move on through the rest of the day...xandra has an earache the babysitter says that stuff is oozing from her ear....car on empty bank account likewise and she needs to see a dr...great so I make an appt for today since my payday is today...so fought that fire...then dinner was a total disaster too many dirty dishes must stand over a hot sink and do them first before dinner...meanwhile baby crying and xandra whining my ear hurts...mom calls to complain about her situation and my brother who still lives at home...husband leaves to vaccume his car while I am in the middle of dinner and leaves me alone with both crying children and dinner cooking...smoke alarm (electric if you know how sensitive those are)going off I run to the kitchen to turn down the dinner...smack my arm into the door frame...reach across the stove and burn my arm...head hurts from all of the crying...husband returns...dinner then more earache whining finally I bathe both kids and put them to bed...at this point with my head throbbing i notice my nerves have caused me to break out in hives all over my body...so I put on calamine and decide bed is the best place for me...I lay down and realize that the air has crapped out...my husband opens window and puts in a fan...well apparently there is a wasp nest outside the window because I feel something burn my leg under the covers...yes I was stung by a wasp in bed trying to escape the stress...xandra wakes up crying I am in tears since it has been years and years since I was stung I forgot how bad the thing hurts...so finally I fall asleep thinking today had to be better...nope...no money in the bank cause I forgot they are payroll deducting our rent now (we requested it) and so therefore no money to cover the bills I just paid hubby ticked cause he thinks I overspent...I just forgot..then take baby to her wic appt...no can do didn't bring in all of the info...get in the car and it stalls because we are still on empty...borrow five dollars from mother in law and get gas...this morning is not shaping up to be at all a good day and I took two pills this morning after the car stalled because I just had a super meltdown in front of the kids and I just couldn't stop ....lord help I feel like I am seriously loosing control...Wow what a day YOU had. Sometimes when you think nothing worse can happen - in your case the bee came along.
I USED to make myself crazy when the truck was out of gas and Hubby didnt bother to put any as I requested or I had no money in my purse. I have 2 kids that drive me up the wall at times.
Now I never let my truck get any lower than half a tank that way I dont stress out. I always put a full tank on Fridays. That way I dont ask hubby to put gas and then find out that HE thought I didnt need any.
I always try and have some money in the house for emergencies and carry at least 20 bucks in my purse.
I use paper plates whenever possible.
Then again sometimes I have days that I should of just stayed in bed.
good luck
Sylvia