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My name is Katie and I'm a 26 year old female. I am more nervous then heck since I'm going to have computerized test done for ADHD. My therapist says it for sure sounds like it, but I still have to take it. (something like the Tova or something. ??)

I hope I'm ok to be here on the message boards. I tend to invade a lot and butt  into things and jump right into things according to people in my life and they hate it and I've been told repeatedly but I just need someone to vent it out to. I've been reading the boards and seeing myself the way I've been for years. I read a few choice parts of driven to distraction and in the ADD in the family part, everyday was like that between my parents and I. (The little Tommy part) I'm basically little Tommy from 4 and up and throughout my entire life as it goes on.

I was in special early childhood clasees before I started school and had speech problems up until the 5th grade when i stopped going. I was quite temperamental and inattentive and worked better one on one. I was a handful for my teachers. I walked the halls in elementary school quite often when I said, "i have to go to the

bathroom. You could find me hiding in the media center just so i didnt have to go back to class and teachers had to guide me. I was easily frustrated and threw spazes a lot. I had report cards saying, "I'm so disorganized," I talk too much, I needed to put more effort in, I have potential, but I don't use it, etc. I was always going to the guidance counselour for something or having them send me there a lot of times through middle school and up.  

My peers did not like me since I was weird and odd and too hyper and I got kicked out of friends houses a lot for it. Peers stopped being my friends as a result and I became unpopular and my temper and "crybaby crypsy" syndrome had them pick on me even more. I threw many outbursts in school and even got physical twice where I had to go to the principal and not just the guidance counselours.

 I fidgeted a lot and was always doing other things in class otherwise and looking around the room at other kids, outside, and the teachers. I said stupid stuff out loud I thought was funny in class. I almost broke the kangaroo rocking chair days on end in Kindergarten from rocking on it so hard during recess while its head hit the ground and the teachers saying stop but doing it anyway.

Many parent teacher conferences I had in my life since I wasnt doing my work on time, and acting up. My mom had to literally get me thru school and drill me to do the work or do it more herself even if she was doing it with me.

I was a nightmare for my own mother at home and "stared" a lot, disobeyed curfews, left when I was supposed to be grounded since I got bored, I couldnt keep anything clean, and I had temper outbursts tons at home and stole and lied a lot. I was always getting into something there she didnt like either and into my crazy ideas. I made noises with my mouth all the time and got up and moved during movies and other venues. She would have to pry me off the video games or one of my ideas many times to do my homework, but i always went back to it,

Now, I'm an adult and have job hopped many of times in my life. I can't organize and I have tons of piles in my house, my bag and work station is always a mess, I cant concentrate to clean, or even finish when I do, I get sidetracked so easy it isnt even funny, I get irritated inside at my boyfriend when im real focused at home on something interesting and he asks me to go out for a cig or any other distraction, Im always on the go when I am off work I'm trapped in a cubicle all day at work and just want to get up all the time,(this is my first non moving job in years- aaahh!) I physically spin in my chair a ton and I'm standing and sitting, (im a telemarketer) my financial control sucks,(I've always been an impulse spender, gambler, etc) I have to have silly putty to play with and journal or read in between calls just to resist the urge of moving since I dont want to lose yet another job, im teasing people with it at work all the time and saying funny stuff when im supposed to be working, i just "stare" as my mom said it was back then and i try to absorb instructions both in work and personal, and I never do, or my mind goes to some other diversion, I have many ideas that I have failed to put into action or finish, some coworkers have backed away from me these days at work too. I've always lost things a lot and do practically on a daily basis, and I forget appts or engagements with people or to make appointments...............

I'm too drawn out here. This has been my life problem and I knew I wasnt the same as other people, and tried so many times but could never get buckled down and stuff always happened. Just wanted to fill you in on this.

Sorry So Long.

Katie

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

The school system never went on to diagnose anything and I was just told by everyone I was lazy, crazy, spaced out, too hyper, stupid,  etc. And looked down on me with disdain and thought it was me doing it on purpose which it really wasn't and I've been having problems. So ive gone through life thinking I'm defective basically and can't ever be as good as other people or get my act together.

sorry i was out for a smoke break.

 

I'm just having a heck of a time lately. I'm hoping I didnt offend anyone. I just need a place to get some support.

KTsDistraction38574.7130787037sorry, I got lost in there.
Couldn't get the whole meaning in skimming for a second or two.
But, welcome :-)

Katie, you are very welcome here. We have all been through the nightmare of ADHD and not being understood. Many of us have gone years longer than you have without a clue as to our problem. We understand and will support you any way we can.

I'm glad you came. It helps so much just to realize that you are not the only one going through this. You should look up the "You know you have ADHD when" thread here. It will crack you up and reassure you that you're among family at the same time.

Once you are diagnosed, there is a ton of experience with nearly everything you will face on your journey. You can get great advice here.

Welcome home!       Barb

It sounds like you belong here.  Welcome to the forum.