Question re medication and life: I’m a 22yr old male and have been on dex (35mg a day in total) for over 2 years and it has been a huge success in many ways. I now have a life and can function. However, whilst I no longer have the chaos and trauma, I find I no longer really experience the fun end of the spectrum. I don’t really find anything ‘fun’ anymore: I still like things but I don’t get the genuine joy, excitement and delight sensation. I’m usually just aware that I’ve got the next thing in my schedule coming up and am on standby for it.
I find it’s the same with romance and intimate stuff now too. Although I’ll be there on time now, I don’t seem feel anything a lot of the time and things become very mechanical.
I feel almost a bit clinical and inhuman and more of an organising robot sometimes. I know I chill out a bit more if I lower my dose slightly but very I’m afraid to do that, even for a day, because I struggled so hard to get myself sorted. Consequently, I always medicate myself, everyday – including evenings, weekends and holidays.
Is this right or should I let my hair down a bit more often and embrace my gift? Anyone got any experience, ideas or suggestions?
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I totally agree with you Gypsy Woman!
There is so much good about being ADHD and "normal" thinkers just don't get it. We have to be responsible for finding the fine line between what makes us unique and what makes us capable of functioning well in the "real world".
LoveActuary, if reducing your meds don't work for you, ask your dr about an antidepressent or something. Maybe the meds worked so well that you have uncovered a hidden problem.
Thanks!
I know my dose is right for ‘functioning’ day to day, as I worked closely with my Doc to get that right over the first year. 2.5mg less and I’m rather ineffective again! I can usually ‘feel’ it my concentration if I’ more than 10 mins late for my next dose. However, I’ll definitely try taking it down a gear at times such as weekends, when I’m on my own time, don’t need to be powering about and can enjoy the other side of things a bit. As you said, it’s not all bad.
I think deep down I’m very driven, after all the years of trying and just missing, and it tends to come out on the medication. I think I’m probably still getting used to working and keeping up with the real pace of life, even after two years. Whilst before I was dx’d, I was always behind, late or hyper, at least I wasn’t aware of it! My Doc says this, and responding better to social situations are now my main areas for development. He was going to arrange a life coach, after seeing if it helped my ADHD Dad: however, my Dad keeps forgetting to organise it. I may have to assume command here perhaps.